So I’m not sure if you have ever tried to pick a Word Press theme or not. Or if you even know what that is, basically it’s the “theme” that makes your blog or website look how it LOOKS. Like what people see when they type in your URL. So as I’m starting my blog, you need a theme comes up in my YOUR BLOGGING UNIVERSITY lesson, which I already knew, but basically have been putting off… like forever. Like can someone just do that for me please?

I am the WORST decision maker EVER. I literally need to see EVERY SINGLE OPTION out there before I can make a decision. (I tried on over 30 wedding dresses…. 30 is maybe a modest number… whatever).

So I have narrowed down the choices to at least just ONE website that offers themes. I started with three different websites, so that’s something. So the website I choose has like HUNDREDS and maybe THOUSANDS of themes. I could be here all day, and those clothes ain’t going to fold themselves.

So one theme (towards the beginning) really stood out to me. I opened the live preview and was like oh my gosh I LOVE this!!! It’s me all day. It’s minimalistic, the colors are neutral, it’s set up how I want, I love those clean sharp lines.

Then doubt set in.

But what if I really have people come to my blog (other set of fears, but we’ll save that for later) and they HATE the way it looks. What if I’m the only person in the entire world who likes black, gray, and white and clean lines and boxes? What if some poor soul comes to see what I actually say and then LEAVES before reading my words because they hate the way my site just looks. They can’t even stand to be here one more second!

So I continued…. Through the thousands of themes. Then I found one that was coincidentally named ‘Project Happiness”. WOW how perfect is that?! Could it be any more perfect! It’s like they created a theme just for what I am trying to accomplish here, but guess what? It didn’t make me happy.

There were too many colors, not that I dislike colors, but they clashed with my vision. There was way too much going on just generally, and it made me feel more anxious than happy. And that’s when it clicked.

My version of happy is probably not going to be the same as someone else, ANY one else for that matter. My version of happy is only for me. I am the only one who can decide what makes me happy and what doesn’t. I also can’t decide what makes anyone else happy, not my husband, or my mom, or my friends, and especially not all of the other people in the world who I have not ever even met! I can’t force someone to be happy and I can’t force myself to like something just because it made someone else happy.

That is the amazing thing about being human. We are all so very, very different. No one is you. No one can be you. Only you are you and you have something special and amazing to bring to the world every day.

So I’m sorry if not everyone likes the theme I choose. I hope it doesn’t put anyone off from reading my words, but if it does, I won’t let it affect my happiness.